Seems as if I'm darned if I do and darned if I
don't...arachnoiditis symptoms can increase with increased activity as well as
decreased activity...so if I get off the couch and go for a walk there is a
risk of increased pain, however f I stay on the couch and lay low, there's a risk for
increased pain. It's horrible trying to find the balance between will it or
will it not.
I'm tired all the time, from pushing myself to do everyday
things, and from medications. Seems unfair for me to have to live this
way...but also unfair for my husband and son. They are healthy and fit, they
shouldn't be confined and pinned down by my limitations.
Disabilities and sickness affect the entire
family. All members play an intricate role in helping the person affected by
the condition or sickness maintain wellness. It’s a heavy load to bear for
the family. What gets us through is our faith. We see the sunnier side of
things, we see that things can be worse, we see the blessings in ALL things,
and my husband and I take our marriage vows very seriously. Doesn’t mean it’s
all Pollyanna, sunshine, rainbows, and glitter at our house, but with God we
get through it together.
Joshua 24:15 “But
if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this
day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the
Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as
for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.”
Philippians 4:10-13 “I
rejoiced greatly in the Lord that at last you renewed your concern for me.
Indeed, you were concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not
saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the
circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to
have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every
situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.
I can do all this through Him who gives me strength.”
